Diabetes Blog Week: Keep It To Yourself

Day 2 for blog week, which you can learn more about  here  and find a list of links to others blogging but basically the idea today is to share what I like to keep private about my diabetes and why.

I'm not one to personally share my A1C whether it's amazingly good for me or high because it's mine.   I earned it and my best is different from anyone else's. I'm okay with that and respect that asking someone's A1C is like asking someone's age or weight or how much they make, sort of off limits.

Other than that, it's the small things that happen every day that I don't share with anyone, here on my blog or even in my life. The guilt and shame of high blood sugars even when I can't explain them, the fear of never waking up if my sensor is off and I drop low for some unknown reason, the anger at my body when I'm too low to finish something I've started or to follow through on a promise I've made to my girls. Oh, and the irritation at my mind and this disease when I can't find my strips or lancet device to prick my finger or my PDM w my pump so I can't bolus when I know I need to and the knowledge that my blood sugar is on an incline and I can't stop it! Grrrrr, that really drives me insane and it just spirals sometimes!

I guess when it comes down to it, I really try to keep all the shit to myself. Because I want to be positive and hopeful and optimistic, yes. But mostly because if I started down that path, I'm afraid it would be hard to get back, ever...